Thursday, May 19, 2011

Living, changing, growing up, and learning who's REALLY there for you.

Since this is the only sort of journal I keep, I wanted to get this out. I'm not doing this for sympathy and I doubt anyone really reads this anyway... but it's for me. To remember where I WAS at, and where I AM at now. I don't have any regrets in my life. I have learned a lot and the things I've been through have made me the person I am today. Stronger and happier than I have ever been.

Since the end of September, I have been living in my best friends basement. I was going through a lot...hands down the most difficult time in my life. Amber and Jason offered their basement and wouldn't take no for an answer. They opened their house up to me and told me I could stay there as long as I needed to. I stayed for almost 8 months, and I couldn't have asked for better roommates while I was transitioning into the single life again. :)


I am SO grateful that they, not only let me live there, but were there to help me through everything I was going through. I can honestly say I have some of the BEST friends in the whole world. I can recall countless days of Amber coming downstairs and dragging me out of bed, getting me to actually go out, laughing with me, crying with me, having all day movie marathons with me because I didn't want to pull myself off the couch, and she didn't want to leave me to sulk in my misery by myself. We would have sleepovers because I didn't want to be alone. She even took a spontaneous girls trip to California to "get away." Both Amber and Jason listened, talked and gave me advice. They told me what I NEEDED to hear whether I wanted to hear it or not and no matter how hard it was to accept some of the things they told me, I'm glad they did. I remember being scared to death of facing my next chapter and step in life and having both of them tell me that it was ok to be scared. I owe a lot to them, especially Amber.



“True friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient; it's about being there when it's not.”




While I'm on this "BFF" kick and talking about the people that were there for me through "it all" I can't leave out my co-worker and one of my best friends, Romina. Since I started this job, we have always gotten along. Within the last 8-ish months, we've become attached at the hip. We're quite the pair and there's never a dull moment when the two of us are around. :) Ro has been there for me EVERY workday morning. We have our morning coffee/chat in her office at 8:30am, every day, without fail. There have been many tears shed, but just as many smiles and hysterical laughter to go along with. We share our "date" stories- good, bad, or otherwise, talk about our ups and downs in life and help each other through it all. I'm also very grateful to have her as my partner in crime, as well as one of my best friends... We're headed on a little girls weekend getaway this weekend.... Vegas isn't going to know what hit it! ;)




Last but certainly not least, I can't leave out my rock(s) and foundation that taught me the MOST in my life... my family.



I will argue that I have the BEST parents in the whole world! No matter what I do, they still love me. I know I haven't been the perfect daughter (as close to perfect as one can get though, right? ;) but they have been there for me and supported me through everything I've ever done. Right after I got divorced, I pulled away from everyone, (except for Amber...I didn't have a choice, I was living in her house. Haha) including my family. I know it was hard on them, me not opening up but at the same time, I think they understood that I needed time to figure things out on my own. I remember one day, pulling into the driveway of my parents house, my dad was outside. I had been crying ALL night, and I'm sure I looked like I'd been hit by a train... The second I saw my dad I started bawling again. We had a long talk outside, I told him I felt lost, didn't know who I was and that I was scared TO DEATH to be alone or take a step out of my comfort zone. He gave me a lot of good advice and encouraged me to "get out of my on deck circle and step up to the plate"... Of course it was softball related, right? ;) I went inside and was welcomed with a big hug from my mom. She didn't ask questions, she just let me cry. My brother and sister-in-law were in town and I asked my brother for a blessing. I sat and talked with him afterwards, he gave me a shoulder to cry on, gave me some good suggestions and told me a few things I needed to hear. I can honestly say, that after that day things just went up from there!














I am happy to say that I feel more like myself now than I EVER have. I bought myself my dream truck (Tonka is her name ;), just moved into my own apartment by MYSELF, (never in my life did I see that happening) and I love it! I'm dating, playing softball, and doing my own thing.... Of course I still have my days, but I LOVE MY LIFE!

Softball, Softball, Softball

Dear Mother Nature,
As much as I enjoy a rainy day here and there, please make it stop raining and bring out the sunshine. You're really putting a damper on my outdoor activities and I have had WAY too many softball games canceled because of you.
Sincerely,
Bree

I LOVE the fact that Winter is over and I'm really looking forward to the warmer months. Softball has been in full swing for about a month now. Between coaching, playing, and teaching lessons I swear I spend more time at the ball field than anywhere else.... which I am completely okay with! I'm playing 4 nights a week (yes, FOUR) in different leagues and play tournaments on the weekends when I can. I can honestly say that I love softball as much now as I did when I was younger... Possibly more now that I'm older... and wiser and can appreciate the finer things in life :)
On top of playing 4 nights a week, and teaching some lessons on the side, I'm helping coach up at Alta, and I love it!!! The girls are great and so are the other coaches I work with!!! Go Hawks!!! The State Tournament was supposed to start this week, but the rain has put a damper on things.
I get up in the morning and go non-stop, a million miles a minute until it's time for bed... but I wouldn't have it any other way (for now :)

I played in a tournament last Saturday... 9 games and 12 hours later, I was exhausted, but it was the most fun I've had in a long time!!

About a month and a half ago, I got asked to play in a tournament in Mesquite. They needed one more girl so my friend, and college teammate, Lyndee came with. We had SO much fun! Lots of girl talk in the car and lots of fun at the ball field. We're excited to play again with the same team this weekend! (Weather permitting)

Me & Biggie







Monday, April 25, 2011

Hawaii

With everything I need to catch up on blogging about, Hawaii won the next post. Mostly because I am sick of this rainy/cold weather and REALLY wish I could be back there right now.
So... back in January I was talking with my parents about needing to get away and take a vacation. They reminded me that they were going to Hawaii in March with BYU's softball team (My dad is a coach there for those of you who didn't know) and told me if I wanted to go, I'd only have to pay for a plane ticket and could stay with my parents in the hotel. Sooo...... I booked it the next day!!
We flew out on a Tuesday, and were supposed to stay until the following Tuesday night. Long story short, the flight home was overbooked so Barbi and I volunteered to stay back... They put us up in a hotel, paid for food, AND gave us a $400 travel voucher.. who WOULDN'T want to stay in Hawaii an extra day!! This post is going to be MASSIVE if I give a play by play of the trip, so I'm going to sum it up and add some pictures.

This was the view from our hotel..BEAUTIFUL


We spent a lot of time at the ballfield... What more could a girl ask for than sunshine in Hawaii AND a ballfield?!!!
Spent a lot of timing walking around and completely goofing off. The flip-flop shop!!We went with the team to the Northshore... We stopped at the Temple


And to get a picture with China Man's hat...Went to Matsumoto's for shave ice... (I've been craving it ever since... AMAZING!!!)Had a Hawaiian BBQ at the beach!!Went to the PCC.... awesome!!!Pearl Harbor was incredible!!! I learned a lot while I was there and it was definitely a humbling experience.My Mom, Barbi, and I all stayed a couple extra days... So we went on a snorkling/whale watching excursion... Only saw 1 whale, but saw lots of dolphins and got to snorkle with lots of fish and some turtles!We layed out by the pool and the beach every single day! What I wouldn't give to be back there right now!











I'm pretty sure between me and my dad, we ate more than our fair share of pineapple. Delicious!


Aloha Hawaii.... Can't wait until we see each other again!!!!!

Friday, April 15, 2011

I'm Alive... Honest

I thought I was ready to start blogging again.... turns out, I wasn't. The title to my blog "Life as Bree Knows It"... Well, for a minute there I wasn't sure what I "knew," where I was going, or what I was thinking. (Ha) I do however think I'm ready now. We'll see how well it goes this time... I have a LOT to blog about from these past few months and will eventually get it all posted. Here are a few things I'm super excited to post about and promise to get them up soon!!

  • What I've learned about life, change, attitude, growing up, letting go, moving on, finding/creating myself, and what a TRUE best friend really is. :)

  • Girls trip to California with my bestie!!!

  • Dodgeball

  • Coaching softball

  • Playing softball

  • Vacation with the parentals to Hawaii (hands down best vacation EVER)

  • Location change
So I don't overwhelm myself, I'm starting with baby steps and leaving it at that today. I've been on a quote kick lately, so I'm going to try and end every blog entry with some sort of quote...
"You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret."

Monday, November 29, 2010

Life as Bree Knows It

I needed a fresh start on my blog... So here it is!

A lot has happened in the past few months. Some good...some not. My life has changed drastically, but it's for the better. Here are just a few thoughts running through my head right now (along with the thought that I really should be getting some work done! haha)

* I have cried a lot of tears, but have also had a lot of laughs. Both make me feel better in the end, but I've decided I would prefer to laugh.

*I have the BEST family and friends in the whole world who love me regardless and who are willing to pretty much give me the shirts off their backs (or their basement to live in).

*There are also some people in my life that have been there for me, treated me like family, and helped me through some things that I may not have been able to get through by myself. Whether they think they've done anything or not. (you know who you are ;)

*My mom has this quote she always says... "Do ONE thing every day that makes you happy." I've been doing that... and it works! Along with "Treat others the way you want to be treated."

*I believe everything happens for a reason. That people walk into your life at certain times for a reason. I also believe in FATE... 110%!!!

That about sums it up for now. Happy Monday everyone!!